Thank you all for responding and taking time out of your day to share a little wisdom from further down the path. I sometimes catch myself reading replies and never responding, so I apologize if I made anyone feel ignored.
Since posting this I have taken some more time to consider my struggles and come to some deep personal conclusions. Needless to say, I was lost in a dark wood but have again found my way.
Thank you again for your responses, they helped immensely with preparing additional resources to aid in my journey.
Also thank you so much for responding Greywolf. I’ll admit, it caused a bit of excitement seeing that you yourself commented. I’m so happy to be a part of this community.
PS: Found out my druid name. Came to me in a dream, and the very next day we found a nest on our balcony. Blessings!